Have you ever woken up and thought Hmmmmm? I seem to be doing that all the time lately. My hmmmm is this...what am I created to be doing???? I just don't seem to fit in the niche that I have created for myself (and been blessed with). I own a design firm, but lately I just seem to be hitting walls there.....the part of putting all my money out there to make enough money to pay the bills seems to be the hardest part, that or the people that say they don't know what they want, but really they do because they won't listen to a word I say when I give them suggestions for thier homes. Some just run out and buy the biggest honkin furniture and cram it into a room that just does not do it justice, while others are just to frightened to commit to even a color on the wall. I just have found myself in a spot where I seem to be spinning my wheels, all my money is out there waiting to be invoiced and waiting on the checks...where is all the creativity in all of this??? I love creating wonderful spaces, selecting color combinations, adding just the right accessories, hunting for just the right piece to be the icing on the cake, or tweaking something a client already collects or has, making it one of a kind. Frustration is what I am feeling, especially as I sort through all the paper work that business requires this time of year.
Then there are those days that I take a little time to paint and I wonder why I can't just do that everyday, all day and bring in enough money to pay those pesky bills! Do any of you flounder like this???? or am I the only one going through a creative identity crisis??? Where the heck do I fit into this world of creativity and why oh why does everything in life have to do with money???? Or is it just us single mom's that find that to be true? I just want to yell "STOP" and make the work freeze frame so I can break out the paints and play until my creative soul is filled up and my head is clear of all the nonsense that seems to fill up my days lately. Is this midlife crisis? You know I did just turn 46 (YIKES!) so maybe that is what this is all about. I have always felt like I was doing what I was meant to be doing...being a mom, creating, making a living being creative....why am I so lost in thought right now? Is this the storm before the calm, is God trying to show me something? What? What is it????? Just floundering that's all....like a fish out of water! Have you ever wished that you could write an email to God and just ask all the important life questions and then recieve an email back with his answer? Me too!!! That is where I am at today!
class pictures with projects and vendor booth pics of CAMP WHIMSY at Paper Cowgirl !
So much has happened since I last posted on this blog...I have been blogging on my other blog...www.warehouseartchix.typepad.com, but decided I better get busy and update this one too! This past weekend was an incredible event, the Paper Cowgirl Art Retreat in Waxahachie, where I was blessed with the experience of teaching a class! What fun, and the women who attend this event are just the best! I enjoyed every moment of it, getting to know them each a little better, getting to meet and get to know the other instructors and spending the day with Cindy of course! I want to post some pics of the day, here is the whole group right after the crown class that Joanna (http://www.sweetfinds.typepad.com/) taught, it was a great class and as you can see, each girl created a crown that was to die for! Chantal taught the third class and it was a fabric cuff class, she was filled with information on fabrics and creating with trims and such, another great class and the projects were amazing! We had a fun filled day of meeting , having breakfast, enjoying the Cupcake Whimsy class that I taught, sharing lunch together, then on to Joanna's class, then a break for cupcakes (in the most amazing pastel colors!) and then Chantal (http://www.wishblooms.blogspot.com/) taught her class, we had time for lots of visiting and then some shopping at the Crafty Scrapper in Waxahachie where the classes were held...all in all a fabulous day filled with lots of creative goodness!!! Cindy and Tina create the most fabulous events and I look forward to see what they do for the next one. Check out the Paper Cowgirl blog for more info...
